The road that leads you to nowhere

Ever have one of those days when there is so much on your mind, yet you have nothing to say.

When you're not sad, but not happy.

Overwhelming ambivalence.

You're simply there, participating in the day.

You have thoughts of days gone by, where you said so much and it meant so little.. Where your words just filled the air, then quickly floated away.

And what everyone else says has such significance, and penetrates your mind in ways that make you feel insipid.

When you're searching for your path but still spend your time meandering aimlessly.

Making plans that go nowhere.

Making friendships that dissolve instantly.

Making memories that you will soon forget.

Yet you keep searching, but you don't know what your looking for.

You keep wanting, but you don't know for what.

Your seduced by time, then time becomes a serpent which devours you alive.

Every thing in your life becomes a fleeting thought, experience, memory, feeling.

The beauty you felt.

The pain you saw.

The pleasure you experienced.

The moment you hoped would never pass, is gone, and you cannot summon the strength to repeat it.

You lay there starving, like a wilted flower, shriveling, yearning for the strength, and the beauty you once hoped to have, you once hoped to be.

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